Time

I've not written anything in a while because I'm not sure what to say. I've got a lot on my mind. But I don't really want to talk about it to anyone. I wish people could just be normal though. Sometimes, I wonder what it would be like if I could turn back time for just a split second. If I could make one decision differently.
There's one thing in particular that I would love to go back and change.
But it can't happen. So I'll live the life I have made.
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with my life. I just want different things now. I'm not the person I was back then.
My natural reaction is to run. Always have. But I can't now. Things are different.
I do wonder sometimes about certain things and people. Curiosity always gets to me. I can't help it.
I feel like some one is being very selfish though.
I wish I could just talk, you listen. But it doesn't happen.
Some people just hear what they want to. So stuck in their ways.
I try, but you don't notice. So it's rather pointless.
Others though, they actually listen to me. It's nice. They don't want anything in return, just to talk. That's what I lack in my life. Someone to have a real conversation with. I will not waste this life on people who aren't willing to return the favor.

I'm just ready for a change. Have been for a while.